Handling A Loss, Jabrielle Jimenez's (25 y/o) Testimonial

Ever thought you would have that perfect love story? The one that starts with you meeting your knight in shining armor? Now, imagine meeting your prince charming and then losing him tragically.

I'm Jabrielle & this is my story. 

He was the most amazing guy I ever met. He was a gentleman. He was raised the proper way. He was taught to respect women and that’s what he did— he respected me. He was well mannered. Like other couples we had our disagreements, but no matter what we always worked it out. He constantly made me fall in love with him more and more. I would have never imagined that on February 4, 2017 it would be the last time I would ever speak to him.

I lost my knight in shining armor that morning when a fight erupted on the Grand Central Parkway which led to a nasty car accident. He was hit by a car and dragged 5ft. My phone rang and when I answered his sister told me what happened.

Imagine waking up to that call. I froze in disbelief. I thought it was a lie. I thought he just didn’t want me anymore. I couldn’t fathom the idea that I had actually lost him good. I tried to make up so many things in my head to avoid the truth. For weeks I was in-denial— I didn’t want to accept the fact that he was really gone.   

Days and weeks went by and before I knew it, months had started to go by. I started to lose myself. I began hurting myself and blaming myself. There were days where I didn’t want to be alive. I drove myself insane. I was suffering from severe anxiety and depression. I went through extreme highs and lows. There were days where I felt like the world was collapsing around me and then there were days where I felt like I was on top of the world.

I took the initiative to seek help and speak with a counselor because I was afraid that I would hurt myself. I couldn't let my mind defeat me. I got the help I needed and that's why I am here today to share my story.

It's okay to admit that you're not okay. You don't have to hide behind a smile all the time. It's okay to cry it out. We are human beings and we have emotions that sometimes we can't control and get the help we need. Your mental health is important sister, so seek the help you need. Today is the day you start making your life experiences easier. You start living better, and you start being the best you.